I know I am only a day into this journey but I am already beginning to draw comparisons with my last spiritual quest. The 21 day spiritual journey was all about visioning and faith. This Lenten journey seems to be all about grace and inner healing…restoring the heart.
Yesterday God gave me the word “grace”. Today he gave me my reading for the forty days, The Sacred Romance Drawing Closer To the Heart Of God, by Brent Curtis and John Eldredge.
In my reading today I found this quote by A.W. Tozer “Thirsty hearts are those whose longings have been wakened by the touch of God within them.”
I am thirsty. I am longing. Yet there are things which hold me back from the edge of God’s river. I know it sounds crazy… a minister saying something like that, but as I have spent the last month praying over many of my dreams, goals and visions I am realizing that while I want those things I am also afraid of some of those things because the attainment of the dreams will redefine me. I have realized I have to change in order for some of those dreams to come to pass and some of the change means letting God heal and reorient my heart. I won’t be the same me when the dreams come to pass. Maybe that is a good thing, but it’s still a scary thing!
Question of the day: How do you think you will change when your God dream comes to pass? Is that scary?