What Was I Thinking?

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I can remember running down the soccer field with the ball in front of me.

“Left foot”…”right foot”…. “Control it! Don’t lose it Lillie,” I remember thinking to myself.

I noted the girl to my left, a team mate. I saw my friend, Jody, up ahead on the field.  I recognized the quarterback of the football team barreling down on me with the look of a wolf hunting its prey. Nothing in me registered alarm. No force of logic made me compare myself to him…quarterback vs flute player…avid sportsman vs reads comics for exercise. None of that crossed my mind until I ran into his massive bulk and found myself flying through the air like a rag doll. Up, up over his head I went and then proving Newton’s law of gravity I came down again.

When I came too, the gym teacher and my friends were standing over me. As I was helped to the side lines I remember Jody asking “What were you thinking?”

“WHAT WAS I THINKING?”

I wish I could say that was the only time in my life which I can look back on using those words;  Sadly there are too many “what was I thinking’s” in my life.I suppose that is true of most of us, though. Life hands us many opportunities to make decisions, In our fallen state, we humans often make choices which in hindsight are just plain dumb. These decisions break our bodies, hearts and spirits. Sometimes  even after the dust settles and we are helped to the sidelines by caring friends the result of the tumble-toss is not easily forgotten or recovered from.

The good news is that while we may not be able to help ourselves there is someone who can:

“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psm 34:18

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psm 147: 3

Jesus said of himself…“The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,” Luke 4:18

Today whatever you are walking through, whether the mess is of your own making or somebody else’s, Jesus can heal and restore that which has become broken. Just go to Him in prayer and ask for the help you need. You will find Him ready and able to help.

5 thoughts on “What Was I Thinking?

  1. Loved this post! (Although is it mean that I chuckled to myself at the beginning? I promise I wouldn’t have laughed, had you been really hurt)!! 🙂 And I’m so thankful that I serve a healing God who does restore!!!

  2. Praise God that He is dependable and faithful and will ALWAYS be there for us, with just EXACTLY what we need, whether it is comfort and encouragement or challenge. He will always work for our good.

  3. Very nice post. Sometimes you find yourself unable of making anymore decisions, you need help and support. You think your friends and people could help you so you start complaining and talking to them in the hope of a better words to hear but they fail you not because they’re not loyal but because what we need cannot be given by ordinary people, we need a divine help, we need Allah.

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