In my meditation this morning God took me back to the first stirrings of my heart towards Him. I think I was always aware that there was something bigger than me in the universe. Even though everything around me pushed me to believe that we were just the results of billions of years of evolution I knew in my heart that there was a Divine Spark in the universe. I didn’t know what that spark was and I felt far removed from it but I knew it was there.
Then in eighth grade Jesus began to call. I knew I was searching for God. I searched amongst the saints of the Catholic church. I wanted the closeness to God that they experienced. I thought that I could perhaps find Him if I was good enough. Then I turned to the Jehovah’s Witnesses. I studied with them for a bit and learned that only certain were chosen to be close to God and the rest should learn to settle for their lot in life and be glad of salvation.
A teacher took me aside one day after hearing I was studying with the J.W.”s and explained to me salvation by faith alone through grace alone. I heard about a God who loved me and who actually wanted me to be close to Him and who had made the way. All I had to do was believe and receive and my life would change.
Nothing has been the same since I entered into this sacred romance with God. I am changing. He has put me on a journey. Eternal life started the day I accepted Jesus.
As I fast this Lenten season the flames of divine romance are being kindled into a mighty bonfire. The things that dampen my resolve and my love for Him are being removed. I am romanced by a God who is wild and orderly all at once and so far beyond my ken that I stand everyday amazed by this Lover who has come seeking me!
When was the first time you encountered the God who loved you?