
In his arrogance the wicked man hunts down the weak,
who are caught in the schemes he devises.
3 He boasts about the cravings of his heart;
he blesses the greedy and reviles the Lord.
4 In his pride the wicked man does not seek him;
in all his thoughts there is no room for God. Psalm 10: 2-4

I was at a place where I was angry at God and tried to ignore Him and shut Him out. I was like a tantruming child. It was a horrible, lonely, barren place to be in but it was my own doing and I never want to go there again.
I have been to that place. You are right it is absolutely horrible.